The faster he got the more his penis felt like a needle, it was making little pricks in my cervix and my vagina I felt like it was bleeding……

Sure enough ‘babe stop’ I’m bleeding obviously it wasn’t a river of blood but it was enough to let me know my virginity was well and truly over his sheets were soon stained I prayed it would come out and it was a stark reminder there was no going back now….

I decided to go take a shower maybe that would ease the ache between my thighs I could walk but gingerly was the perfect description.

I’m sure my lower back was as purple as between my legs don’t I didn’t remember banging myself up unless it was when he had me up against his wardrobe the twitch my clit just gave told me it was indeed that I moaned softly to myself

I switched the shower on and let the hot water run all over me with my eyes closed I was day dreaming and I was honestly still thinking what if he never speaks to me again.

He said he loves me and his actions had proven that but sex is a serious step especially in a relationship like ours that is still new. I decided to push these feelings and thoughts to the back of my heart and mind and embrace my man.

After I got dressed it was time for me to leave I had work tomorrow and I didn’t want to be late because I was exhausted. When I went to say bye to my boyfriend he seemed different.

I’m not sure what it was but his body language seemed cold and distant I’m sure I’m just imagining it but yeah I couldn’t help but get this queasy feeling in my stomach….

It made me think back to early on in our relationship when I found a text message in his phone from another woman, he had the same cold and distant body language then but we got passed it or so I thought….

I went over to give him a kiss despite his body language he melted into me maybe it was a trick of my mind I said bye and left he didn’t say anything he just stared at me then as I walked back out to my car I heard the door slam…..

Written by Sistah Soul