It had been a month since I lost my virginity and honestly things aren’t going well with my boyfriend I’ll use that word loosely

I’ve not seen him in person since that day to go to that from how we were inseparable my body can’t finction I feel like I’ve last part of me pathetic I know since I’ve only known him seven months but honestly I did loose a piece of me I shared my soul with him and now he is gone….

I have tried calling and texting he takes ages to reply now or sometimes he doesn’t at all. He hasn’t ghosted but it would be easier if he had done to reduce his communication like he has is killing me. I have been trying to tell him something that the pregnancy test came back positive.

Im hoping it’s false my period didn’t start when it was supposed to and can you find out yuh pregnant this early it’s all confusing and the one guy I thought I could speak to about anything won’t pixk up the phone I’m going crazy.

I heard a knock on my front door and it was my best friend coming to check on me she has been a rock these past couple of weeks seriously there for everything. I wanted to go to the doctors to to confirm I was pregnant then i could decide what I wanted to do.

As she was driving me to the doctors I got a text message my other best friend sent me a pic it was of my so called boyfriend with another woman he was kissing her and holding her like he used to do me. I asked her if she was still in the restaurant where they were spotted she replied yes.

The doctors would have to wait, I just wanted an explanation as to how one minute he was splitting my thighs with his dick and now he is giving me a splitting migraine….

On top of that I could possibly be carrying his child, we got to the restaurant within 16 minutes it wasn’t far from my house and sure enough he was in there with her. I don’t know what made him look up but he did and spotted me he couldn’t even look me in the eyes properly it was like he could see through me. I decided to forget the explanation I got it she was his new victim…..

All three of us got in the car, my best friends tried to talk to me but honestly I didn’t have the energy I had been used and the pain cut deep all because of this one guy. I told Susan to continue to take me to the doctors which she did graciously.

They made me take another pregnancy test and a blood test we waited for the results and sure enough I was pregnant. My mind was made up I knew what I had to do call me spiteful but yeah it’s my body….

My doctor asked me what I would like to do while handing out leaflets on adoption, abortion or raising the child but like I said my mind was made up…..

My friends dropped me off home and said they would be back later to check on me I went into my bathroom reached into my purse and pulled out a packet I shook the contents into my hand.

I stared at this little tiny pill for the longest before I put it up to mouth my final decision had been made I’m sorry I see no other way my spirit is broken I can’t inflict that on you…..

Written by Sistah Soul……